Sometimes I disappear. We all do it. We get caught up in life and never find the time for sitting at the computer.
That's not what happened to me.
I had a headache for two weeks. A constant ache in my head that would increase in waves. B finally demanded that I see a doctor (back story: my mother died of a ruptured brain aneurysm after complaining about headaches - my complaints freak my entire family out). I've always had headaches. Once it was low iron. Recently I started taking magnesium (perhaps it's helped?). Anyway, my doctor didn't bother to see me - I saw his nurse instead. She told me that it sounds as though I have "classic tension headaches" and should take muscle relaxers. Um. No? Still breastfeeding two little guys. I'm not going to live on pain medication, thank you. So she gave me a referral to a physical therapist that I can't afford. Brilliant!
When I got home, B had me make an appointment for a massage therapist. This was Friday. My appointment was Monday afternoon. Let me say, first, that B has been amazing - rubbing my shoulders, trying to field the kids when I just want to lay down. So Monday comes and I go into the appointment without expecting much (I've had a massage before - it *hurt*). Mandy was amazing. When she was done I didn't get up so much as pour myself off the table. I've never felt so relaxed and at peace.
Of course, I can't afford to see her often, either. I'm hoping that we can find a way to afford every other month. Even if my neck and shoulders seize up again in another week and the massage didn't really fix it, it was so very good for my emotional well being. Seriously, it was.. bliss. It was calm. I always joke about not knowing how to relax. Only, it's not really a joke.
Okay, so this wasn't the post I was going to come back to blogland with. I was going to Yarn Along. And I still might - if I can manage to get things photographed. These past few weeks all I've done (besides moan and complain) is knit and read. Which leaves me piles of dishes and mountains of laundry. And more than a few unanswered emails.
But here I am. I'm back. And my head is wonderfully free of pain.