Last reminder

Just thought I'd throw this out there again. This morning is the official start of Extra Life. It's like the classic walking for a cause, only we're gaming for a cause. It's amazing how the community of gamers has come together in the past to raise money for children's hospitals and I'm honored to be a (very tiny) part of it.

I'm battling computer issues (Archeage, in particular doesn't seem to be functional for me and we can't figure out why) but I intend to game through the day regardless. I'll be playing Trove and maybe Rift (if they've fixed Faeblight) with some Knights of Pen and Paper thrown in. It's also not out of the question that the kids and I will play some Wildcraft. If you're inclined to donate, you can do so at the main page or on my donation page. I'll stream if I can get things working on my computer, but I make no promises at this point.

It's all for the kids. And they're worth it. (even if my own got me out of bed much earlier than I'd like)

Thinking

(Old pictures that have nothing to do with this post.. except for when they do.)



It's occurred to me that I may be having a not-mid-life crisis. I feel directionless and adrift. All those existential questions that I don't have answers for plague me. What is my purpose? If there were some moment at the end of one's life where they could look back over the whole of their existence.. what would I see? What do I want to see?

I don't even know.



The dreams that I've had for years.. are they really just dreams? What if I'm "not cut out" for them? What if they really wouldn't make me happy? What does that say about me? About my future? About direction?



I'm talking with a good friend of mine (typing. But still.) and it's.. eye opening. And daunting. I know that I'm negative and pessimistic. I make excuses and avoid things that are too hard. I'm short tempered and have been known to hold a grudge. I can recall, with accuracy, insignificant-but-definitely-negative things that happened more than twenty years ago. I am not patient. I'm not proud of any of those things.



So how do I change those things? Obviously I can't just change them all at once. And certainly not over night. It'll be hard work (which is a problem due to my habitual avoidance of hard work). But where do I start? My friend suggests that I think about how I want to feel and how to accomplish that. Sounds easy enough, right? But it's not. Still.. I guess that life - living - is.. sort of a work is progress.



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Completely unrelated: there's still time to donate to the Children's Miracle Network through Extra Life.

Yarn Along, Extra Life, Here Again

I really had planned on posting at least once a week. Honestly. Let's see if I do any better this time?

School has officially started for the Elf and Imp. The Beast has, thus far, declined all invitations to join us. I think he enjoys having time to himself with no competition for toys.

It's October again. And that means that it's time for Extra Life. I'd be honored if anyone wanted to donate. Last year it was just a friend and myself. I'm not very social and therefore find it difficult to spread the word. At any rate, on October 25th (and the 26th) I pledge to play at least 24 hours of games (video, card, tabletop, what-have-you). Provided I can manage to reconfigure the software I will likely stream the video games on my Twitch channel. Likely I'll play Archeage (it's my escape of choice these days). Maybe a little Knights of Pen and Paper, Cthulhu Saves the World, or maybe even the Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade game from the early 90's. Oh! And Gold Rush (a recent Steam/Humble Bundle purchase - my sister and I played it when we were young).

So yes. Donate money to help save kids. It's the right thing to do.

And now, the Yarn Along (a day late).

In the past few days I've picked up knitting from a year ago and also dusted off (okay, I left the dust on) my spinning wheel for the first time in about a year. Yeah. I haven't done anything fiber related in a long time. I'm back to working on Flaming June. I'm knitting it entirely from Phat Fiber spinning samples. It's very colorful. As far as reading, I've been rereading the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. Because. Yeah. Outlander. I'm on Drums of Autumn and love it just as much as I did the first time I read it.