tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63100137632444717622024-03-13T14:52:40.379-04:00Wild Faerie Capseidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.comBlogger516125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-12803500987582195062018-03-26T10:41:00.003-04:002018-03-26T10:41:37.897-04:00Another random postTo anyone who knows me. I mean, really knows me (there aren't that many of you, let's be honest).. it will come as no surprise to hear that I don't like myself. I'd venture to say that most of the time, if I stop and think about it, I hate myself. A large portion of this dislike is my physical self, which is what I want to talk about today. I've been overweight my whole life. There are a couple of pictures of me around the age of six where I was plump but not conventionally "fat" and I suppose, though I detested myself in high school I'd really love to be back in that body. <br />
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Anyway. I am overweight. Fat. Obese. Disgusting. Not worthy of love or consideration as a person. Do other people actually think this or is it just me, inside my head? Not sure. I know in school people were cruel. Walking down the street in the city, people were cruel. Strangers were cruel. Family was cruel. After more than thirty years of real people and all manner of media telling me that I'm awful, is it any surprise that I believe it?<br />
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Sigh. Okay, the obvious thing that needs to be stated (this upsets me, because it shouldn't need to be stated. but again, people are both intentionally and unintentionally cruel): yes, I've tried to change. I've changed my diet. I've exercised. Do you think as a seven year old I thought to myself "Hey! Let's be fat! That'll make EVERYTHING in life easier!" and just stuck with it since? Do you think I choose to be this way? I mean, a lot of the internet will say something like "obviously you chose this, otherwise you wouldn't be an unhealthy, fat, freak. Duh." Anyway. I'm not justifying. I'm not rationalizing. I'm not going to argue. I've learned over the many years that if you are dead set on seeing me in a certain light, nothing is going to change that.<br />
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Well meaning people on the internet (who are not overweight, in my opinion - regardless of the arbitrary and outdated medical definition) like to say things like "your body allows you to do things, so love it no matter how it looks. make positive changes and live for yourself. all bodies are great!" I get you. I appreciate your thoughts. My body is not healthy. It does not allow me to do things. My spine is damaged, I cannot bend like a healthy person - regardless of my weight. I have chemical imbalances that prevent me from doing.. I mean.. a lot of things. Those chemical imbalances are part of my body. My lungs don't work properly. And never have. I have nerve damage in my lower back that affects my legs. I have nerve problems in my elbows that affect my hands. I am not healthy. And if you try to blame it all on my weight.. ugh.. then just go away, I don't have time for you.<br />
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That said, this body grew three healthy children. Grew them, birthed them, nourished them, and is raising them. Surely that counts for something, right?<br />
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Okay. But what was the point of this mind vomit? Here we go:<br />
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Because I'm raising impressionable young things, I try to be mindful of the sorts of things that come out of my mouth. My words can have more power than I'm comfortable with at times. Still, I strongly dislike myself and things slip out. Everyone in this house has heard me say negative things about myself. But sometimes.. I'll say that I'm fat and stupid, for example. My middle son will hug me fiercely. My youngest will likewise hug me and tell me that he doesn't think so and that he loves me more than anything. <br />
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Think about that. The cruel among you are thinking "it's because they don't know any better" and don't think I haven't had those thoughts myself. But get this, I'm allowed to hate me. You don't even know me. <br />
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So my seven and nine year olds give me comfort. Here's another thing that happens. My nine year old and I will be doing something. The limitations or difference on my part will be noted by him. Let's face it. An overweight thirty-seven year old can't do the same things a nine year old boy can sometimes. He'll say something in agreement, of course I can't xyz, I'm bigger than he is. My fifteen year old will (almost literally) spring to my defense. He'll get super angry that his little brother would *dare* say something like that. I appreciate his intentions, but I've also tried to explain that little people (and a huge number of adults) lack tact and that it's something they learn.<br />
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Okay. So what? My family loves and accepts me for who I am. They don't hold my appearance against me. They. Accept. Me. Even when I don't. We won't even go into how they all are understanding and helpful about my anxiety. They love me despite my weight. Maybe this shouldn't amaze me the way it does. But.. it does. And I'm not taking credit for them being this way. They're just amazing, thoughtful, and kind human beings. And I adore and appreciate them.<br />
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I suppose, to an extent, I've written this so that I can come back to it when I need to. I've felt very out of place lately. I don't fit into the online communities that I'm supposedly a part of. I've been deeply feeling my physical limitations lately. I will continue to work on myself. Both physically and mentally. But it's worth remembering that my family - the one I chose, the one I made - they love me for me, even in spite of.. me.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-30178052061757022562017-10-03T11:48:00.001-04:002017-10-03T11:48:37.928-04:00vegan "cincinnati style" chiliThis is a mash of several recipes. Namely <a href="http://allrecipes.com/recipe/13157/cincinnati-chili-i/">this one</a> and a vegan lentil one that I'm currently unable to find (will update later if I rediscover it's origins).<br />
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What I do (I'm lazy. And I cook the same way I review books these days - sloppily and with much emotion, though usually internalized):<br />
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In a big stock pot saute a diced onion in olive oil (or if you're out of onion skip to adding water, then add spices - including powdered onion). Add spices, stir, let cook while frantically looking for a can of diced tomato. Add can of tomato (or sauce if you discover you're out - but it's better with diced tomato in my opinion). Add two cans of water (who needs measuring cups, right?) and a splash of apple cider vinegar. Drain several cans of beans. I like to use garbanzo, black, and pinto. Add to pot. Add about a cup of dried lentils. Add leftover guacamole or as much avocado as you have lying around - it can take a great amount and taste amazing. Shake in about half a cup (I've never measured this in my life) of ground flax seeds and.. er.. a quarter of a cup? A third? A generous amount of nutritional yeast. Because deliciousness (if you don't have this or don't like it, I imagine it'd be just fine without it).<br />
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Hmm. Stir, cover, simmer for as long as you can stand (at least 30 minutes - lentils need to cook. I often let it go for about an hour when I forget about it, though). Try and stir it regularly or your teenager in charge of doing the dishes will yell at you for having to clean the stuff stuck on the bottom of the pot.<br />
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Once you're ready to eat, grab a stick blender thing and blend the holy heck out of it. It will end up being delightfully lumpy and surprisingly similar in texture to the meat chili we used to make before I decided that was gross and please don't make me eat animals anymore.<br />
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Serve with pasta. Or fritos. Or whatever. With lots of cheese (because we're terrible vegans here and cheese is delicious). Freezes well, pleases most of the monsters in my house.<br />
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Let's see if I can make a list of things you need and quantities..<br />
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- diced onion (or copious dried onion powder)<br />
- can of diced tomatoes (any size works but I use the 15-ish ounce ones)<br />
- three cans of beans (the 15 ounce ones) - i use black, pinto, and garbanzo/chickpeas<br />
- two cans of water (to get all that tomato out.. right?)<br />
- a splash (tbsp?) apple cider vinegar<br />
- spices<br />
- at least 1 tsp salt (but taste and add more if needed later - I don't measure this one either)<br />
- 1/4 cup chili powder (heaping or however you like)<br />
- 1 tsp cinnamon<br />
- 1 tsp cumin (HEAPING BECAUSE YUM)<br />
- 1/4 tsp allspice<br />
- 1/4 tsp clove<br />
- 1/4 tsp cayenne<br />
- 3/4 tbsp cocoa powder (or some bittersweet chocolate chips when you realize you're out of cocoa powder)<br />
- 1 cup dried lentils<br />
- 1/2 cup ground flax seeds (I use golden flax meal because it's what I have)<br />
- 1/4 cup nutritional yeast<br />
- several avocados or leftover guacamole<br />
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Oh gods, did this make sense? I don't cook like a sane person, I'm sorry!eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-35966198387164538712017-07-05T11:41:00.002-04:002017-07-05T11:41:34.850-04:00BooksDon't know what to read next. Help!<br />
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Metamorphosis - Franz Kafka<br />
Don Quixote - Miguel de Cervantes<br />
The Winner's Curse - Marie Rutkoski (obviously I need to read this before book 2)<br />
The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making - Catherynne Valente<br />
The Kiss of Deception - Mary Pearson<br />
Wildwood Imperium - Colin Meloy (I need to restart with book 1, though - which I also own)<br />
The Bone Season - Samantha Shannon (obviously I need to read this before book 2)<br />
Beastkeeper - Cat Hellisen (a reread, but I love all of Cat's books)eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-35490349346413402682017-06-20T10:19:00.001-04:002017-06-20T10:19:58.511-04:00Good mail weekSplurged at <a href="http://bookoutlet.com/">bookoutlet.com</a> (and amazon for Genki).<br />
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(three of the above I've read before but needed on my shelves for rereading: The Orchid Affair and The Lure of the Moonflower - both by Lauren Willig and Beastkeeper by Cat Hellisen. Oh wait. I also read The Bone Season by Samantha Shannon. But I need to reread it before I get to The Mime Order.)<br />
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Next indulgence once the third Maggie Hall book comes out in paperback. World's End? Something like that.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-770395506561081242017-06-16T11:41:00.001-04:002017-06-16T11:41:19.884-04:0010th grade biology lessonsHome school can be hard. Finding secular science curriculum that doesn't cost a small fortune is also hard. I cobbled a curriculum together using <a href="https://www.ck12.org/book/CK-12-Biology/">CK12</a> and <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Biology-Coloring-Book-Robert-Griffin/dp/0064603075">a biology coloring book</a>.<br />
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Now I just have to write up algebra 2, Japanese, 2D animation, and computer literacy lessons. And fit them all (along with Oak Meadow world lit and geography and the aforementioned biology) into a schedule that has a chance of working out for us. To think, I need to have it all done before August, too!<br />
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I think I need another coffee.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-16508925467376323462017-05-25T11:49:00.002-04:002017-05-25T11:49:31.457-04:00Learning Japanese is hard. That is all.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-71989281734159498132017-05-02T12:28:00.000-04:002017-05-02T12:28:58.018-04:00Triss MerigoldA companion for Geralt. And because I need (on an emotional level) a gift to give to B on his *actual* birthday..<br />
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Used the <a href="https://www.etsy.com/listing/182065518/slave-leia-crochet-amigurumi-pattern">Slave Leia</a> pattern by <a href="http://www.ravelry.com/patterns/sources/crafty-tibbles">CraftyTibbles</a>. I didn't follow all of the pattern, obviously. But I used it heavily. Her patterns are great for person-shaped character designs that pop into your head and natter at you until you make them.<br />
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Anyway. It was requested that I make "Geralt's one true love" to keep him company on B's shelf at work. Well, anyone who knows me knows that Triss does not fit that role in my world. But Yennefer is too regal for me. Too detailed. And the idea of trying to get her hair right makes my head ache. So Triss it is. B likes her better anyway (cue my grumbling).<br />
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With luck he won't see this post (I don't think he ever checks unless I send him the link anyway) because I'm trying so hard to hold onto this doll for three more days. It'd be novel to give him a gift on the right day for once.<br />
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Reference (from the additional content that came with Witcher 2 on GOG):<br />
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Front:<br />
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Her hair isn't perfect. Okay. Nothing about her is perfect. But I think I did a decent job all the same.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-82527911590857956742017-04-28T12:14:00.001-04:002017-04-28T12:14:08.761-04:00Battle Block Theater GuyThe Beast loved this game. He hasn't played it in a while. But.. I made a pattern for the round headed prisoner anyway. <br />
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And then made a variant for him in his cat pajamas. <br />
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Because reasons. (Also it's his birthday gift. That I haven't given to him already. Unlike the other four things I made for him...)<br />
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Will I ever share this pattern? Dunno. There are some fiddly bits that I don't feel like explaining. I guess if someone asked I'd give it a go. But it's not like this is a particularly difficult character to make..<br />
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Not entirely happy with the ears. It bothers me the more I look at it. Should have made the triangle lopsided so they'd stand up better. Oh well. Next time.<br />
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Will I ever make Ciri? Or Yennifer? Or Triss? Oh! Or Yarpen?<br />
Dunno. Maybe. Maybe not.<br />
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But.. I do have a project coming up (using the same patterns as a base) for a character from a game that I don't even play. So. Yeah!eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-82506078848149239722017-04-25T12:16:00.002-04:002017-04-25T12:16:43.109-04:00GeraltWork in progress here. Still need to figure out something for the swords on his back. And my pictures are terrible. But.. that's what I've got on this cloudy day - over bright lights on short cords. Oh well.<br />
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I've heavily used bits of two patterns by <a href="https://www.etsy.com/shop/CraftyTibbles/">CraftyTibbles</a> (Slave Leia and Gandalf, to be specific). Reference pictures found on Google image search. I wasn't good enough to remember from whence they came. So no credit, though it's from Witcher 3.<br />
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eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-89034970054736527532017-02-14T14:18:00.003-05:002017-02-14T14:18:41.208-05:00Sick with the fluI feel like crap. Have a drawing.<br />
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This is the idea I'm currently working with to replace the rabbit in my animation. I think I need at least one more bear though.<br />
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eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-43165509550200074542017-02-10T14:26:00.001-05:002017-02-10T14:26:22.234-05:00UghI may have to change my plans completely. I can't seem to make these rabbits not look stupid. The current thought it maybe the octopus in place of the opening circles and... something else for the rabbit.<br />
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Yesterday's failure:<br />
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eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-50144405370032881792017-02-08T13:42:00.001-05:002017-02-08T13:42:41.143-05:00Some updatesAlright. Added some things. Not a huge change, but I think it improves the overall piece. Procrastinating on the next bit where the rabbit's voice/part changes. May involve the tentacle squeezing him and his eyes bulging comically. We'll see. After all that is done I'll go back and try and tweak the mouth movements so that they're more in sync with the music.<br />
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Constructive advice is welcome, just remember that this is a hobby and I'm as amateur as they come. I've been using this software for maybe two weeks. And I'm a delicate flower, dammit.<br />
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Again, not my music. Song is <a href="https://youtu.be/C_4p5et6_ok">Cotorito but the impressive Middle Milk</a>. <br />
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Our local Gamestop is now out of the blind boxes so I am officially done.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-85266373670589375652017-01-27T13:24:00.001-05:002017-01-27T13:24:07.860-05:00Birthday LootWoke up after sleeping under a heated blanket all night. Saw a friend I hadn't seen in a long time. Had much caffeine. Found a deal on MLP blind boxes. Bought yummy food at the grocery store. Came home to my boys and a box of gifts from B.<br />
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So far being 36 is pretty fun!<br />
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The loot:<br />
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The Skyrim guy even has an arrow in his knee. I love it. I had wanted the pony with the weird green hair that looks vaguely like tentacles (big surprise, right?) but am pretty happy with what I ended up with.<br />
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Love this pin so much. It's absolutely stunning.<br />
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This shirt is proportioned weird. Like they made the body larger and left the shoulders/neck/sleeves the same as for a small shirt. It's very weird. Not sure I can wear it comfortably but I'm determined to find some way to make it work.<br />
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And now to go play games!eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-61117460037069276132017-01-26T14:31:00.001-05:002017-01-26T14:31:41.610-05:00I made a thing.After a week of trial and error (heavy on the error) I've managed to make a thing. It's not great. I'm no artist and I know next to nothing about animation or digital art. But I made a thing. <br />
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It's been a learning experience. I started out in Pencil2D and Synfig and ended up in Adobe Animate (because it has the most recent/coherent/best-for-me tutorials). This was made entirely in Animate with the help of the Gimp (in regards to images I had already drawn but had to trace/redraw). The idea was for the tentacles to move around - this will take more time. There should be several cats. The cat and rabbit should not be singing at the same time. And there should be a song. To which I've timed all of this. It was pretty overly ambitious of me and this is one of my baby steps.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-54514002168234501592017-01-25T09:58:00.000-05:002017-01-25T09:58:43.404-05:00Yes, I'm a weirdo.I saw <a href="http://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/kit-tea-cat-2">this pattern</a> and immediately decided to make it. Because cute, right? And then I saw that it was a "this comes to you in two parts - you can have the other half later" type of deal (the other half was already published but my brain hadn't caught up to that yet). So of course I decided to crochet the cup and then.. put a tentacle in it. I mean, isn't that everyone's first thought?<br />
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You can see more pictures <a href="http://ravel.me/eidolons/ktc">here</a> - even if tentacles aren't your solution to most things. Stay tuned for a life sized mug-bowl-cup full of *knitted* tentacles in the future. Because.. I'm a weirdo.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-14401947239567376242017-01-20T13:13:00.002-05:002017-01-20T13:13:41.314-05:00Work in progressThis is how I've been spending my time for the past couple of days.<br />
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Once upon a time I told the Elf that I wanted him to make an animation for <a href="https://youtu.be/C_4p5et6_ok">this song</a> for my birthday. I have a fairly specific way that I see the majority of it in my head whenever this song comes up on my <a href="https://play.spotify.com/user/pandect/playlist/5yqhXp3LajvjKJUIjFVJMf">playlist</a>. Long story short, my birthday is next week and he hasn't done it (no judgment or blame, merely a statement of fact). So I decided to try my hand at it (after all, I'm not the one doing all the actual schoolwork and seem to have much more free time than he does). This scene is a small part of what I'm trying to do. And yes, I'm insane for trying something this detailed for my into to animation. That said, anyone who knows me should know that I never do things the smart/easy way.<br />
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For anyone who cares I'm using <a href="https://www.gimp.org/">Gimp</a> for the artwork and plan to use either <a href="http://www.pencil2d.org/">Pencil2D</a> or <a href="http://www.synfig.org/">Synfig</a> for the actual animation.<br />
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I've been away from this space for a whole mess of reasons. Perhaps I'm back for real this time. Perhaps not. In either case, this is the new-old me. I still homeschool but am unlikely to be amongst the Waldorf crowd. I still knit and crochet (and presumably spin, though I haven't in a long time) but it's no longer the all consuming thing it once was. I'm much more likely to be playing video game, watching anime, reading books, listening to music on Spotify, watching Twitch streams, or taking on overly ambitious projects like this one.<br />
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*bows*<br />
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And now back to work!eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-28346245997411344942016-11-08T16:42:00.002-05:002016-11-08T16:42:44.948-05:00WoofSo life.<br />
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Doing <a href="http://nanowrimo.org/participants/eidolons">a thing</a>.<br />
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Listening to <a href="https://play.spotify.com/user/pandect">stuff</a> (mostly the Witcher 3 soundtrack at this point).<br />
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Playing <a href="http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198151280219/">the games</a>. But also <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.skillshotlabs.NoticeMeSenpai&hl=en">petting the chibi boys</a> (because I already collected everything in Neko Atsume).<br />
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Homeschooling the monsters. Drinking the coffee. <br />
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Have gone vegan. Still haven't done anything medical about my insomnia, depression, anxiety, headaches, or backaches. Because reasons.<br />
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Also. Trying to get to a point where I no longer hate looking at myself.<br />
(Yes. I wear cat ears. On days that are not Halloween. Deal.)<br />
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Have also developed an addiction to tea.<br />
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That is all. Time to make dinner.eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-16285896360882141582016-08-01T09:00:00.002-04:002016-08-01T09:00:35.077-04:00August the FirstYesterday was July the Last. The last day of "summer vacation." We celebrated (I guess) with a Pokemon catching trip to the park and lots of video games at home later.<br />
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Today. Today is the first day of school. The first day ever (officially) for the Beast. The first day of high school for the Elf.<br />
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And I'm not ready. Oh, the lessons have all been organized. But nothing is <i>ready</i>.<br />
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The Imp is up and my coffee is consumed. In ten minutes I wake up the other two monsters. I figure that gives me less than an hour to get my head (and everything else) together.<br />
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And I left the house. Three times. When I normally wouldn't have. I've walked more in the last 24 hours than I have in more than a month. I talked to strangers at a park who were obviously also playing Pokemon Go.<br />
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Yeah. So that's a thing.<br />
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Apparently I have to walk 17.5 miles to hatch all my pokemon eggs, too. Uhm... eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-20187176741036178842016-04-07T09:11:00.001-04:002016-04-07T09:11:34.872-04:00Hyperx Cloud IISomeone got a shiny new toy!<br />
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They're so comfy. And so fancy. I love them!<br />
(I can't speak for the microphone quality/capability as I haven't used it. But the sound quality is super.)eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-87833038044725178672016-04-05T15:24:00.000-04:002016-04-05T15:24:13.022-04:00GeekingWorking on <a href="https://www.etsy.com/listing/129026662/pattern-for-stargate-sg1-amigurumi-minis">these</a>:<br />
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(Sam just doesn't have a body yet, no worries. Also, yeah, they'll get arms soon.)<br />
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Listening to this:<br />
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And <a href="https://open.spotify.com/user/pandect/playlist/5yqhXp3LajvjKJUIjFVJMf">this</a> (always, always this).<br />
(Though apparently you need to have an account to listen to Spotify even for free *sadface*)<br />
(That said, I have Premium Spotify. Because I love it. And listen to it almost every waking minute. I have issues.)<br />
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Playing <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tomb_Raider_%282013_video_game%29">this</a>.<br />
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Going to make <a href="http://gingerschatz.blogspot.com/2010/04/kitties-in-row-afghan.html">this</a> for a friend's soon-to-be-baby.<br />
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But right this moment, the Beast demands servitude (because the world will end unless peanut butter pretzels materialize in front of him Very Soon).eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6310013763244471762.post-17496753362856883462016-04-02T15:57:00.003-04:002016-04-02T15:57:30.605-04:00SadFace<strike> WTB friends</strike><br />
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WTB gaming friends<br />
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(that like the same type of games I do. And aren't pretentious. And won't yell at me when I make a mistake. And games to play with them. And.. oh forget it.)eidolonshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07927033443769623400noreply@blogger.com0